The strangeness of actually feeling feeling bland at the weekend has returned. I must find new ways to entertain myself without leaving the house.I love how I can't  do my job because he won't get out of bed.

I surrender to myspace- It was going to happen.

Aha! storms ahead me hearties but whatever....

I feel dull

Haven't updated in a while so here goes...

College is good, except for a certain someone's 'issues' but still, it is reasonably amusing. Less work than I thought  but I'm sure that will change.

Home is well.... downspiralling but I have a feeling that I will get out before the end. JUst have to keep my patience and have cry session in my room on Sundays and whenver I hear 'You raise me up'

Loves for interesting conversations with Maddie and Emma on way home from Chi. Mrs A= Idiot... hehe

Having deep and meaningfull thoughts about deep and meaningfulness eg what I'm going to do with the rest of my life. I mean I know what I 'want' to do. But both of options with not go down with rents. At the same time am painfully aware that I can't carry on following what they tell me to do and with have to eventually 'fuck everything up on my own.'

Learnt how to use the washing machine. Was overrated. 

Found out about costume. Must muscle legs....

Have actually worked out that I don't want to be in a relationship. Whether this will last is ?. Can't stand the thought of someone thinking about me all the time...

Realised that I am both a better and worst person than I thought was.

Worried about losing contact with people had a 'This is never going to be the same again' Conversation with Lucy J. 

Realsied for the first time in my life that it is time to stop wondering and angsting about everything and wishing things would be the way they were and letting myself be manipulated. Time to take control of myself and deal with the conquences.

Looked up Theology degrees. TIme to have faith and do want I planned to do since I was 13....

Haven't updated this in ages.... so I'm feeling really chilled and at peace.. its an odd feeling.

I love how when your on holiday a week is like a year.

And ooo am doing loads of babysitting which is really good although I think its killing my brain...